I have been contemplating this post for a really long time. But something or the other cropped up.
Career: My situation is very weird right now. The job market was down for a while. I have been getting interview calls since it has been up and running but nothing has materialized. In fact, despite interview calls, weird things have been happening like recruiters have been forgetting to call me on the scheduled time. And this has happened 4 times!!
Referrals are not working. People have asked me to search for an array of positions instead of the high-flying ones. I have been doing that... though unhappily.
Freaking hell, I am here for a reason. I have not spent 2 years of my life and a half a crore Rs on my life over nothing. My brain refuses to settle for less. Though I believe I will have to.
The funny part is I don't even have time to seek the best. Just 2 months to graduate.
Family: Papa passed away. I have been crying ever since. He was unwell for a long time but I still expected him to keep going until the end of this year. We tried our level best but could not save him. None can replace him.. obviously.. he was an amazing person. I miss him like crazy. The worst part is that I could not even see him for one last time. I was not around when he left us. I could not even see his rites. Cons of not living with your family.
Love: Love life sucks. It does not exist.
Twitter: Been tweeting a lot.
Social life: Starting today I am going back to my shell. No Human Interaction Zone. That's the only way out. No partying, no dating, no talking to people... nothing that will disturb me.
Life overall: SUCKS big time. I do not need a reason to cry. Now that I think of it this situation has continued from October end. Life sucks really bad. I am developing suicidal tendency. I even googled that but apparently dying isn't that easy either. Never mind! I cannot stop expecting out of life and people and so this misery. I am on my way to either crawl under the bed and die or gain more than I can handle. The former looks more probable.
Current thought: I wanna die
Current song: I wanna die
Current mood: I wanna die
Career: My situation is very weird right now. The job market was down for a while. I have been getting interview calls since it has been up and running but nothing has materialized. In fact, despite interview calls, weird things have been happening like recruiters have been forgetting to call me on the scheduled time. And this has happened 4 times!!
Referrals are not working. People have asked me to search for an array of positions instead of the high-flying ones. I have been doing that... though unhappily.
Freaking hell, I am here for a reason. I have not spent 2 years of my life and a half a crore Rs on my life over nothing. My brain refuses to settle for less. Though I believe I will have to.
The funny part is I don't even have time to seek the best. Just 2 months to graduate.
Family: Papa passed away. I have been crying ever since. He was unwell for a long time but I still expected him to keep going until the end of this year. We tried our level best but could not save him. None can replace him.. obviously.. he was an amazing person. I miss him like crazy. The worst part is that I could not even see him for one last time. I was not around when he left us. I could not even see his rites. Cons of not living with your family.
Love: Love life sucks. It does not exist.
Twitter: Been tweeting a lot.
Social life: Starting today I am going back to my shell. No Human Interaction Zone. That's the only way out. No partying, no dating, no talking to people... nothing that will disturb me.
Life overall: SUCKS big time. I do not need a reason to cry. Now that I think of it this situation has continued from October end. Life sucks really bad. I am developing suicidal tendency. I even googled that but apparently dying isn't that easy either. Never mind! I cannot stop expecting out of life and people and so this misery. I am on my way to either crawl under the bed and die or gain more than I can handle. The former looks more probable.
Current thought: I wanna die
Current song: I wanna die
Current mood: I wanna die
