Friday, April 26, 2013

New Girl in the City... :)


                “Mam, please go to the 10th counter and pay the required amount.” I looked at the receipt.’ INR 6000 /- only’ it said. “That is as expensive as my air-ticket” I said. She smiled. Not wanting to argue I went to the counter and paid for my excess luggage. I remembered the number of tests I had failed in my training to earn that money. I checked-in and turned back to search for my family. Their worried faces greeted me with a smile. It is a custom for them to wait till I check-in. I showed them thumbs up. I started walking towards the security check. I glanced at the huge LCD. Despite the bad weather my flight to Trivandrum was as per the schedule. No chance of missing the flight or the flight being rescheduled. My bad luck had been steady so far. I reached the security check only to find a km long queue. Out of frustration I looked outside the glass wall adjoining the Ladies security check. There my parents and my brother sitting on a table of 4. I found them staring at the empty chair. My heart broke. I was supposed to sit on that chair and enjoy a nice cup of hot cappuccino with them on that rainy day. I was supposed to fill that 4th chair every place they went to. Wishful thinking I thought. I called up my parents, waved at them for one last time and moved on.
                Flights are always boring. Time crawled. Unfortunately even my favorite writer could not keep me engrossed. I finished with two masala teas and gazed into the future. I had seen Trivandrum only on Google maps – magnified view. The zoomed out map of India had pushed me into depression. Trivandrum was just few hundred kilometers away from the extreme corner of country. I was thrown from Mumbai to Mysore and now further down south - to Trivandrum. Life had just gone down-under.
After cursing God for more than half of the duration of my flight I decided to take advantage of my window seat. And I was amazed. Beautiful! I could only see coconut trees. I wondered where people stayed! And for some time I actually thought that people here stayed in tree houses. All I could see was the vast ocean and coconut trees. The rainy season had only beautified everything. I knew my life was going to be cool. Or so I thought.

Landed. The airport was/is only 1/50th of the Mumbai airport. But that was not my concern. I opened my email to fetch the address of the hotel where I was put up. All of my acquaintances (I say so because we hardly knew each other’s names then) were slated to reach after a few days which meant me alone for quite some time. I somehow managed my luggage, took a prepaid taxi to reach the hotel that was in the heart of the city. The entire city was silent and it was only 5.30 PM. I sat beside the driver seat and he was pretty surprised when I told him I would take the front seat. On the way I hardly saw anyone wearing trousers or shorts. ‘Lungi’ and ‘Mundu’ (I have learned the difference between them only recently) seemed like the national dress of Kerala. Kerala felt like a different country altogether. I reached the hotel successfully but the nightmare had just begun.
I was given the corner-most room of that hotel. The lights of the corridor ceased to work. I tried to convince the receptionist for a room nearer to the reception. But NO! According the rules Rooms could not be exchanged. Also I was supposed to pay the entire hotel rent alone since I had no roomie. Expenses Reloaded. I knew Trivandrum was turning out to be too expensive for me. Thankfully, they helped me carry my bags.  Thankfully, the room was decent enough.  But with decency came silence. I looked out of the window. No view. And it rained. I felt happy for the rains though. At least there was something common between Mumbai and Trivandrum – rains.
To do away with the silence I turned on the TV. And it just did not work. I tried all the possible combination of buttons. And then there came a point when I felt ashamed of being an Engineer. This point comes in every Engineer’s life. None considers you as an Engineer till you fix some appliance. TV failed me. I wanted to avoid calling for help since I was alone. Security reasons you see. But I could not take the silence anymore and hence called up the reception for repair. And within seconds the entire staff made an entry into my room. They worked as if repairing that TV was the only mission of their lives. Finally after an hour the TV worked. Now the entire hotel knew I stayed alone. Exactly what I wanted! (aargh!) Of course I could not sleep that night…and the many nights that followed. TV was my only companion all this time.
On the first day I asked the receptionist my way to the campus. He told me to catch some bus that went to some place. I could not even spell what he said. Pronouncing those names was impossible. They spelled ‘zha’ in a different manner.  Since I was confident I would catch the wrong bus anyway I thanked him and left. So here I was, in a totally strange land, catching buses. I got into the first bus that was supposed to help me reach my destination. During the journey I spent my entire time tackling strange looks. There were separate sections for men and women in the bus. That was something new to me. Separate compartments in trains were expected but not in buses!
Finally, after more than an hour and changing 2 modes of transport I reached my workplace. The campus ended as I entered. It was extremely small as compared to the other ones. I found my manager and reported to him. Everything was new. I was clumsy. Faces were unfamiliar. I tried contacting friends from other DCs. Office communicator was the first thing I opened. The ‘Black tag’ had transformed me from a ‘trainee’ to a ‘resource’. I quickly made a list of things to do. Searching for a house was priority no.01. And it had to be done real quick.
Dinners were a problem. The hotel, we stayed at, was too expensive. I and my colleague tried every imaginable restaurant in the city. The pink and boiled water greeted us everywhere. I whatsapped a photo of the pink water to my father. He panicked and immediately called me up to ask what it was. It was difficult to figure out that it was drinking water. The water is colored because of the medicinal herbs. I decided to go for it. And since then I decided to try every imaginable Kerala custom and food. I decided to adapt to everything around.
We had to find a nest within 6 days and so we house-hunted like crazy. My roomie joined me in a few days and finally I was spared the horror of taking important decisions alone. Come Thursday and we did not have a nest to stay. I stood in front of the hypermarket and called mom, my last resort. It was pitch-dark and traffic was deafening. I broke down. I felt helpless. I was just 2 days away from being kicked out of the hotel and I had no place to dump my ‘over-paid-for’ luggage. I regretted having turned down my father’s offer to accompany me till I settled down. I regretted being confident about living on my own.
Come Friday and by God’s grace we had options to choose from! 2 beautiful houses waited for us. We opted for the fully-furnished one though. It was like a dream come true! However, we were not sure which apartment we had opted for. We had seen so many apartments in the past few days that we could not recollect exactly which one we had opted for. And VOILA! It turned out to be a steal! It has a sea-view. And yes, in case of a Tsunami our building would be the first one to be hit. Doesn’t matter though. Finally, God had seen those tears.
And we sealed the deal. It was the first time we all wrote cheques. Cheques worth more than a lac rupee (expensive deal. But we love the house!) The amount on the cheques made me think I had a bright future!  We entered the apartment (now home) and it felt amazing. It was meant to be. This apartment is now called our ‘home’ *touchwood*. And the sea is still the first thing that we see every morning. Uncalled expenses, sleepless nights, tears, frustration, bad luck… in the end it didn’t even matter. J  We got ‘home away from home’. J *touchwood*. We vowed to make this place the most happening  place ever. We all are…like…alienated here having little access to the outside world. Sooo.. we created our own world here.  According to us visiting Sri Lanka is cheaper and faster than visiting home. Jokes apart! Understanding, love and support follows. We are just a bunch of awesome people mixed together like a Bhelpuri. The only thing is that….the Bhelpuri is served in coconut leaves.


Friday, April 19, 2013

P.S I love you


                She woke up with a heavy head. She could not feel anything. She struggled to open her swollen eyes. She looked around. Everything was unusually silent. She saw the mirror. She saw that her swollen eyes were still moist. She was worried to carry the ‘P.S I love you’ hangover to work. Anybody could figure out her bad mood. Everything showed on her face.
                She decided to make herself a large cup of tea. She knew nothing could beat the ‘P.S I love you’ hangover. She had watched the movie ‘P.S. I love you’ the previous night and had decided to draft a last email. Every scene reminded her of him, of the time they spent together, of the many days they spent and of the way he left her…. Unfortunately by choice. She still wondered what went wrong. Every time she looked back she only saw her faults, her mistakes and everything that might have gone wrong.
                She had written the last email with a heavy heart. It was painful to pen your last words to someone who was/is still her life. They were together for a long time and he had been her only love. He was ‘love at first sight’ for her. She had fallen for him even before she knew how to spell ‘love’. Whatever the case was…. Everything was over now. He did not want her back and was probably very happily in love with someone else. And here she was, completely torn.
                In the last email she apologized for everything. She wanted him badly. She wanted to be alive again. She could not think of her future because in a way… she had grown with the relationship. She grew up with him. It was impossible for her to think of her future without him. But she did not ask him to come back. Because she knew she had hurt him badly. And nothing could help now. The first thing she checked in her phone that morning was emails. She did not expect a reply from him. And she had not received any.
                She went to work. She knew she would go mad if she was idle. Thankfully she was not. She kept thinking about him in all the time. In the team meeting thankfully her part was over and so she was free to day-dream. She decided to check her cellphone. Surprise Surprise! He reverted.
                He asked her to be happy with her new life. He asked her not to be sad that it ended but be happy that it happened. He said it did not work out because it was not meant to happen. Her question: Why did it happen at the first place if it was not meant to be? It was a short email but she kept on reading it endlessly. She wanted every word of his to sink in. She wanted her mind to know that she has to move on since he has moved on. She could not react…maybe she did not want to. This reply was expected. And he had written it as a friend and not as her ex.
                She decided to shut her phone and concentrate on the meeting. She had gone numb. She could not believe things had ended like this. He had wished her very best for her future with her new partner. And he did with all the ease. She wanted to laugh it off. She was young and she made mistakes. But she knew falling in love again was a difficult task. She no more struggled to think or to fall in love again. In the movie Holly could not fall in love with anyone after Gerry…and so she knew she would have a tough time too.
Because she knew she would love him till the end.
P.S I love you.